Friday, March 02, 2007
Dear Internet:
I've seen you looking at me and wondering. I know you're thinking that I'm in a depression again. And you're right. I am. The good news is...this is one I saw coming, and took certain measures to keep it from being too bad.
You see, every year, for a week or so before Anthony's anniversary, I get like this. I thought it would eat me alive on the one-year anniversary. I wasn't fully prepared for it last year; I expected it, but didn't realize it had shown up until it was too late. This year, haha! This year, I was ready for the beast. Can't stop it, but I was ready for it.
So if I'm a little quiet, if I don't smile as much, if I snap a little more, it's not because I've gone off the deep end (no, that happened a while back). I'll be better soon. Give me another week, and I'll be fine.
Just be patient with me, and maybe a little understanding. This isn't an easy time for me, and I've got to deal with it my own way and on my own time.
I'll be back. I promise.
You see, every year, for a week or so before Anthony's anniversary, I get like this. I thought it would eat me alive on the one-year anniversary. I wasn't fully prepared for it last year; I expected it, but didn't realize it had shown up until it was too late. This year, haha! This year, I was ready for the beast. Can't stop it, but I was ready for it.
So if I'm a little quiet, if I don't smile as much, if I snap a little more, it's not because I've gone off the deep end (no, that happened a while back). I'll be better soon. Give me another week, and I'll be fine.
Just be patient with me, and maybe a little understanding. This isn't an easy time for me, and I've got to deal with it my own way and on my own time.
I'll be back. I promise.
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Hope you're feeling happier soon. We'll be thinking about you.
Hey Laurie,
You have so much going on in your life right now. Exhaustion can't help, you know.
I certainly know what you're talking about, too, though. So don't feel alone.
Dear Laurie: Perhaps you have too much on your plate. It isn't worth it. Your dear husband and son need you. This too shall pass. Love, Gram
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